Back, here and there again.

Sch Hols.

2010-06-10T03:41:00.001-07:00

No. I'm not gonna give in this time.
It's time I did something useful.

CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUTH CAMP '10 :D
NO SCHOOL FROM TODAY ONWARDS!
FREEDOM! (Not really)

PATRICK VAUGHN STUMPH SOLO LIVE~

2010-03-29T03:29:00.001-07:00

OMW OMW.
PATRICK. SOLO. LIVE. THINNER. HOTTER.

YAY.

Thank you.

2010-03-23T05:33:00.000-07:00

Thanks for being there with and for me outside the com lab today.

B for Bleah/Blah/Boo

2010-03-09T03:08:00.000-08:00

Dejavu.

Is it unavoidable or just us?

What if I'm doubtful of myself?
What if I feel that I will make the same mistake?
What if I'm not good enough?
What if(s).

Doubts or precautions?
God, I need that kind of faith to close my eyes and to let you guide me.

Frostbite

2010-02-23T03:27:00.000-08:00

Seriously. Frostbites are scary.

Frostbite Causes:

Your body works to stay alive first, and to stay functioning second.
In conditions of prolonged cold exposure, your body sends signals to the blood vessels in your arms and legs telling them to constrict (narrow). By slowing blood flow to the skin, your body is able to send more blood to the vital organs, supplying them with critical nutrients, while also preventing a further decrease in internal body temperature by exposing less blood to the outside cold.

As this process continues and your extremities (the parts farthest from your heart) become colder and colder, a condition called the hunter's response is initiated. Your blood vessels are dilated (widened) for a period of time and then constricted again. Periods of dilatation are cycled with times of constriction in order to preserve as much function in your extremities as possible. However, when your brain senses that you are in danger of hypothermia (when your body temperature drops significantly below 98.6 F), it permanently constricts these blood vessels in order to prevent them from returning cold blood to the internal organs. When this happens, frostbite has begun.

Frostbite is caused by two different means: cell death at the time of exposure and further cell deterioration and death because of a lack of oxygen.
In the first, ice crystals form in the space outside of the cells. Water is lost from the cell's interior, and dehydration promotes the destruction of the cell.

In the second, the damaged lining of the blood vessels is the main culprit. As blood flow returns to the extremities upon rewarming, it finds that the blood vessels themselves are injured, also by the cold. Holes appear in vessel walls and blood leaks out into the tissues. Flow is impeded and turbulent and small clots form in the smallest vessels of the extremities. Because of these blood flow problems, complicated interactions occur, and inflammation causes further tissue damage. This injury is the primary determinant of the amount of tissue damage that occurs in the end.
It is rare for the inside of the cells themselves to be frozen. This phenomenon is only seen in very rapid freezing injuries, such as those produced by frozen metals.

My first reaction when reading this:

O.O

Frea.ky .

What becomes of the broken hearted by Joan Osbourne. Nice (:

Moving on

2010-02-18T02:15:00.001-08:00

Things change. People come and go. Sometimes, relationships are only there for a certain time. You have to move on, hope for the best, forgive, forget and treasure your memories.
But, God will always be there (:
It's seriously amazing.

~

are you a sunset or a sunrise person?

American Idol

2010-02-18T01:53:00.001-08:00

ASHLEY RODRIGUEZ.

SO VOTING FOR HER.

Scars

2010-02-17T03:51:00.001-08:00

Scars, they heal but never fade. They either make you or break you.

We learn from experiences. God brings people into our lives, some, to be a blessing, the others, to help us grow.
Scars- you are what they make you.
People change, but old habits die hard.

~

Hey you, yes, you.
Funny huh? How things seem so different after all these years. Growing up I guess. Just wanna say, I really appreciate you. Taking care of me since we were kids, being my big bro(: You'll always be the person I can run to, to understand my problems. THANK U

fall out boy BROKE UP

2010-02-04T05:29:00.000-08:00

WHAT THE HECK. FALL OUT BOY SPLIT UP?
WHY IS GOOD MUSIC COMING TO AN END?

Unofficial Breakup (2010)
On February 1, 2010, bassist Pete Wentz said on Twitter, "Don't you get it? A hiatus is forever until you get lonely or old. I don't plan on either." "I can't imagine playing in FOB again." "Something would have to change in my head or my heart ... not my wallet."[36]
On February 2, 2010, Spin Magazine released an interview they had with lead singer Patrick Stump, who replied to Pete Wentz's tweets by saying, "I'm not in Fall Out Boy right now. But one way or another, the band will always be around...Whether we play again or not, I don't know. If we do, it will be for the right reasons. If we don't, it will also be for the right reasons." Stump also told Spin.com that he was focusing on his upcoming solo career.[37]
Later that day, drummer Andy Hurley simply tweeted, "I quit too." as guitarist Joe Trohman tweeted in reply, "fine, i quit too."[3][38]
Wentz took to his blog to sum it all up saying, "i dont know the future of fall out boy. its embarrassing to say one thing and then have the future dictate another. as far as i know fall out boy is on break. (no one wants to say the “h” word). as much as i dont have a solo project, i also cant predict that id ever play in fall out boy again. not due to personal relationships as much as a band we grew apart. in this statement id like to include there is the possibility that fob will play again with out me or i will be a part of it when everyone is on the same page. it is no ones fault and there is no animosity about the decision. i felt as fans you deserve to know. there is no singular reason for this. the side projects or bands are supported by all members of the band. i am the single biggest fan of fob and if this is our legacy than so be it. i am proud of it."[39]

This really sucks.

PATRICK STUMP

2010-02-03T02:10:00.001-08:00

PATRICK STUMP'S SOLO ALUBM. FINALLY! I HAVE BEEN WAITING LIKE FOREVER FOR THIS :D PATRICK'S BACK, THINNER AND HOTTER. DON'T BELIEVE ME? WATCH THIS:

Patrick Stump from Patrick Stump on Vimeo.

PATRICK STUMP

2010-02-03T02:10:00.000-08:00

This is really random.

2010-01-29T01:57:00.000-08:00

http://stewieismyhomeboy.buzznet.com/user/journal/53762/top-10-reasons-why-people/#

THANK YOU MEL FOR THE AWESOME LINK.
PS: I did not type this out.

Top 10 Reasons Why People Should Forget About Patrick Stump Being "Fat"

10. fall out boy use to not get so much money as they are now, so now he has more money to buy more food.

9. his "fat" makes him look cute.

8. there is no law aginst being overweight, and there will never be unless paris hilton is president.

7. he seems to love food, and so do i, and pretty much everyone on earth, except for anorexics.

6. at least he still has his voice and guitar skills, so nothing is wrong.

5. he is not at any health risk, like diabetes, so he is fine.

4. there is more to love.

3. at least he is not hilary duff or nicole richie, who probably weigh as much as they did when they were 10 years old.

2. he needs something to set him apart from everyone else in the band. (besides hats.)
and the #1 reason why people should leave adorable patrick alone.

1. IT'S HIS BODY! he has a right to be 400 lbs. if he wants to. he has a right to be stick thin if he wants to. (i just hope he won't become stick thin, or i'll cry.)
and a little shout-out to the preppy ass skanks who made fun of patrick in that one video i found on here where she said "i'm patrick, and i'm growing bald, and i'm getting fat, that's why i wear a hat." or something like that.

I totally agree with this man.

^^

C = Common Test.

2010-01-27T03:18:00.000-08:00

It's been "BLEAH" so far, doing my best is never enough. Thank God it isn't the O's yet. Haha (: Wooo~ it's been really distracting studying Social Studies so far. It's like this complicated drama going in circles. But, I totally wanna thank God for like being my tower of support and strength. It's been, well, eventful in school so far. Things change, things disappear, but God remains and He is the same, yesterday, today and forever. Amen (:

God, I need my fear removed.

I want all of MayDay Parade's albums.

The lead singer looks like Alex from The Cab. LOL.

School; Week 3.

2010-01-21T01:18:00.000-08:00

Well, school's like abit tiring now. Tests seem to like come one after another. But I'm gonna try to LOVE it.

Study Study Study.

What has become of this world?

School.

2010-01-08T02:21:00.000-08:00

Hellooooooooooo.
It's been awhile since I updated my blog.

WOO. School, the new year, class, homework. School's awesome, but the studying/ being hardworking part? Not really. Man, to be honest, I have lost my drive to work hard and study. It's so easy to get complacent, it's easy to "slack" again. God, please help me!

I just realised who you were yesterday. The real you. I hope that you know what you're doing, 'cause I've been there before.

mmm.

2009-12-29T20:08:00.000-08:00

To say that I am not looking forward to it is an understatement. OMW. I absolutely loathe it. I'm feeling awkward here man.

._.

Hahaha, well. Studying SS made me pissed. Not at the teacher actually. But at a certain country. It's the first time in my secondary school life that I've ever felt so... interested in A HUMANS. TOPIC!!! Ok, that was really random. But New Year's coming. I hope, i really wish for the 180 dance. Man, i miss those days. Haha.

WONG GIN MING!

2009-12-28T19:16:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG GIN MING :D

Thanks for all the memories and everything. You've made a difference in my life (:

GOD BLESS :D

Christmas Eve.

2009-12-24T02:43:00.000-08:00

It is certainly great to be back in Singapore, like after being in Melaka. The shopping trips were awesome :D

Christmas is coming! WOO~ It's like seriously, the BEST holiday of the year. Friggin' excited for tomorrow's awesome event during the afternoon and night! Haha (: Spent a wonderful time at Udders Ice Cream Stall today with Gin! I seriously didn't know that the ice cream stall existed in Westmall until today O_O

I wish that it snowed in Singapore for at least a day :(

Winter is AWESOME :D

The line

2009-12-23T00:34:00.001-08:00

This is where you cross the line. I'm done with everything.

They've changed. (:

2009-12-14T05:54:00.000-08:00

WOO. The old and new fall out boy. Honestly, i prefer the new(:

At least their new music makes sense.

I wish.

2009-12-13T20:01:00.000-08:00

"From now on, we are enemies"

2009-12-13T18:40:00.000-08:00

I'm just the man on the balcony singing :
"Nobody will ever remember me"
Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees
I'm just the man on the balcony singing :
"Nobody will ever remember me"Rejoice, rejoice and fall to your knees.

From now on, we are enemies.

This week has been like a blur. Honestly, some things just happen so fast. Too fast.

Boring(?)

2009-12-07T20:21:00.001-08:00

Well, it's the holidays now. Except that I have nothing. Absolutely nothing to do. (: Haha.

Hey young guy (: just wanna tell you that you have people caring for you, and that you're loved. Even though you don't know me yet, I'm praying for you. I hope you get well soon, cause I know that God has an awesome plan for your life.

I BELIEVE

2009-12-06T18:23:00.000-08:00

WOOOO! Hi (:

it's been a long time. Had media fast for one month, which i kinda broke once in awhile. But nevertheless, God's been very awesome (: Had 180 DANCE!!! practices and the actual day was awesome. In fact, the whole of november was awesome and i believe that december, too will be awesome. BELIEVE CONFERENCE WAS SOMETHING ELSE MAN! All of the pastors who preached were awesome! Through all the experiences and stuff, I'm glad I got closer to church and church friends.

~

Restore the broken.

I just don't know.

2009-10-25T07:34:00.000-07:00

How many times have I gone through this?

Why?

I can't accept this. I don't want to be this way.

Go. Just get far away.

~

Just stop it.

PCD

2009-10-23T02:53:00.000-07:00

Omw. I have a current fetish for PCD. Esp. this song (:

A peaceful friday.

2009-10-22T19:36:00.001-07:00

Sitting at home, and staring at the computer is kinda peaceful. Not that I have things to do anyway. Was reading:

I guess I'm a sucker for these kind of novels. Well, pardon the randomness~

Great...

2009-10-20T04:15:00.000-07:00

Well, gotten back results. So far, haha. Sucked. But thank God I passed, like at least (: I must say, i have been slacking off like no one's business these few days. Yesterday with Gin at the movies (: it was awesome! Gosh. It's like weekend's just over:/ But well, it'll pass i guess.

Hmmm.... my mind is blank.

One month without listening to them. I will survive. ( I hope )

Believers never die

2009-10-15T23:24:00.000-07:00

OMW. I WANT THAT ALBUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM D:

and alphadog is :/

EOY OVER.

2009-10-13T07:12:00.000-07:00

Like, FINALLY EOY IS OVER.

Heehee

Gosh, i'm sorry if i can't feel this way. You know why? It's because I gave up a long time ago. So stop trying. Seriously. I HAVE A LIFE.

Go Stacey!

2009-09-28T01:31:00.000-07:00

SICK :D

2009-09-28T00:46:00.000-07:00

Hey people,

Being sick is awesome. But it does have its advantages and disadvantages :/

Advantages:
NO SCH
WONT GET TO SEE CERTAIN TEACHERS
ABLE TO SLEEP AS MUCH AS I WANT

Disadvantages:
Missed church ytd :/

Gosh. But as Gin said, there's church this week, so :D and chem eoy is this friday.
i hope that dejavu doesn't happen :/

Over and Over again

2009-09-18T02:19:00.000-07:00

Yes. I know that my blog is totally dead now but whatevs. Firstly, I was just thinking the other day. What defines me? Who am I actually? I mean, we all just live in this world not to just grow up, get a job and get married to the one you love, have kids blah blah blah and die. If that is the reason for us living, please think again. Life is just weird. I know which path I want to take, but then again, is that what God wants for me? Hah. Life is so not easy. If only life were easy, but then again, it would defeat the purpose of living.
~

You know what? I don't know what the problem is with me. People change, for a valid reason. Have I just changed overnight, feeling numb and everything, which is not what I'm supposed to feel like? It's like my emotions have left me. Honestly, school is such a drag nowadays. The only thing I look forward to is the weekends. Church and stuff. I do admit, I have lost alot of things. Be it bits of the person who I was, emotions and people. It's difficult reading me. I mean come on, how can i NOT KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND ME. gosh.

~
But friends do make life great(:

I've been thinking

2009-09-03T02:00:00.000-07:00

I've been thinkng. This would be a nice show to watch :D Just saw the adverstisment for this, it was super funny, esp. the 'ZAC EFRON' part. Muahaha. GOSH. BUT ITS NC16 D:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH YAN

2009-09-02T02:46:00.000-07:00

HEY KENNETH YAN :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Thanks for being, who you are. My bro (: LOVE YA! (as a sis)

What am i supposed to do?

2009-08-19T02:22:00.000-07:00

I've come to a point where i really don't know what to do. I just hate feeling helpless. This has already changed me, it showed me what i can be like, with my anger. I don't want to be this way. I hate it.

Tears Dry On Their Own

2009-08-01T07:25:00.000-07:00

"Tears Dry On Their Own"

All I can ever be to you,
Is a darkness that we knew,
And this regret I've got accustomed to,
Once it was so right,
When we were at our high,
Waiting for you in the hotel at night,
I knew I hadn't met my match,
But every moment we could snatch,
I don't know why I got so attached,
It's my responsibility,
And you don't owe nothing to me,
But to walk away I have no capacity

[Chorus:]
He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I'm grown,
And in your way, in this blue shade
My tears dry on their own,

I don't understand,
Why do I stress A man,
When there's so many bigger things at hand,
We could a never had it all,
We had to hit a wall,
So this is inevitable withdrawal,
Even if I stop wanting you,
A Perspective pushes true,
I'll be some next man's other woman soon,
I shouldn't play myself again,
I should just be my own best friend,
Not **** myself in the head with stupid men,

[Chorus]
So we are history,
YOUR shadow covers me
The sky above,
A blaze only that lovers see

[Chorus]

I wish I could say no regrets,
And no emotional debts,
Cause that kiss goodbye the sun sets,
So we are history,
The shadow covers me,
The sky above a blaze that only lovers see,

[Chorus][x2]

He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I'm grown,
And in you way,
My deep shade,
My tears dry on their own

-
can promises be broken? I will pretend, cause it's the only thing that keeps me from talking to you.

Not anymore.

2009-08-01T07:08:00.000-07:00

No. Not anymore, what do you think this is, a game? Nu-uh.

What a catch donnie, what a catch.*smiles* They say the captain goes down with the ship, so when the world ends, we won't go down with him. Or do we?

15!

2009-07-25T01:08:00.000-07:00

I'm finally 15 (:

Friday-
Yesterday was awesome! Gio led me to the chapel cause she had a problem, then, we went to the chapel and she brought me down, AND I HAD MY BIRTHDAY SURPRISE! Had a cake fight with Denicia and Kenneth ran somewhere ;D HAHA. GIO AND JAVIER WERE TOTALLY SCREAMING LOR. Saw my awesome presents that i didn't expect to get (: Ended up washing our faces at the sink. On the way home, i smelt like vomit. But the cake was AWESOME THOUGH! Had a really great time(: rocks.
~
Guys, really thanks so much for making my birthday awesome. Thanks for even remembering! Super touched sia. Honestly, words can never describe what i felt yesterday. I know i didn't cry, but the chinese oil thingy helped! :D seriously. When i fall, you guys are there, when i cry you guys are there. Where would I be without you guys?

At night!
After street E, Gin Ming, Charis and Sarah came all the way from i dunno where to have a birthday dinner with me, natalie and sandra! We went to KFC, goofed around, cam whored, and had a really great time. Waited and talked with Gin Ming at the bustop (: After she left, continued talking with Charis and Sarah.

Girls, am seriously touched too :D thanks for coming like all the way man! Thanks for all the awesome times we have in church, with you guys sabo-ing me to look unglam :( LOL! And Gin Ming, thanks for the awesome personalised present (: i will treasure it; everything we did together(: Charis and Sarah, thanks for celebrating my birthday with me(: can't think of how to spend my birthday dinner, without sisters like you (: Natalie and Sandra, AWESOME GIRLS FOR GOD in my net, thanks for everything, both of you act cute people (:

AND YOU, RACHEL YEW. Thanks for being like my oldest best friend in school. 3 YEARS, plus the time we first met during DSA.

I LOVE LOVE YOU GUYS MUCH(:

& to those who remembered my birthday, thanks (:

blog photos are totally in facebook. stupid blogger is stupid enough not to post it up.

That thing you do!

2009-07-23T02:25:00.001-07:00

omg. Ever since RETRO NIGHT, this song's been stuck in my head (: AWESOME

LOL. TRAILER.

LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS SONG

My stand

2009-07-14T03:07:00.001-07:00

So many things happened early this week at home. Being attacked is not fun. But I'm gonna make my stand. God, no matter what I am going to serve you. You are faithful and true. You are always there and You know me better than myself. Even if i'm dragged away from You, i know that you'll pull me back to You with Your love (:

SMILE :D

2009-07-10T21:58:00.000-07:00

aww, it's so cute.

Yesterday, sch was ok i guess. Went out ASSESEMENT BOOK SHOPPING WITH Gio and Javier yesterday. Haha, i'm like that youngest sis there. It means i can bully Javier. Tried getting him to carry my books yesterday, didn't work:/ LOL. And Gio was just ganging with me against him. Strangely though, we kind of lost Jq and Vel at the shopping mall. But oh well us sis and bro, got the same file :P In my fav colour! Blue. Heehee, neway love them loads and loads (: I really miss this. The three of us like last year when we went for that concert. Later in the night, had like TAKE IT TO THE STREETS! And Sandra was awesome (: Love you girl! We have the same BIG AND AWESOME GOD. Loving life. And it's the WEEKENDS it means more of church(:

I'm lovin' it.

~
Thank you for making me appreciate the small things in life. I smile when i see you guys enjoying yourselves.

Talk about hair much.

2009-07-10T03:48:00.000-07:00

MY HAIR'S IN A MESS D:

God's not dead

2009-07-09T06:11:00.000-07:00

God's gonna move. God's gonna start a revival. It's already happening. He is all knowing and AWESOME. I serve an awesome God (: He never fails me or leaves me in the lurch. He's my path to guide me. He's my refuge to go to whenever I'm weak. He is the everlasting God. God, I can never thank you enough for what you did for me. I LOVE YOU (:

Why?

2009-07-08T06:30:00.000-07:00

Why am i feeling this way? It's so strange. You make me smile. Alot. Crap.

With hands lifted

2009-07-05T20:07:00.002-07:00

One day, they will see, they will know, they will hear of who you are.

TEEHEE

2009-07-03T02:11:00.000-07:00

He is hot. So hot xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR RACH' AND SAM (:

2009-07-02T21:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RACHEL!

Happy birthday guys (: you're like finally 15. Older than me man. D: It's really great having you guys in church. Continue with the good fight of faith! LOVE YA (: to the max(infinity).

A shadow.

2009-07-02T21:09:00.000-07:00

Not feeling really happy lately. Haha mostly grumpy. Like went to Orchid Country Club yesterday. Was totally slacking again. We spent four hours there but only did 15 mins of work. For what? Just to carry the podium. After that went for discipling with Colleen (: haha. Was quite fun. Know what i'm gonna get ________ and ___________ and _______ for their birthday. Let me give you a clue. ALL OF THEM ARE TEENAGE GIRLS :D Hahaha.

~

You know, i really feel inferior. Whenever i am around you. People just love you. I can't be like them. I'm not like them. I'm not as fun as them. I will give you freedom, i will let go. Slowly, i'll be become a shadow. I'll only appear when you need friends.

I really wanna thank God for Gin Ming and Ah Balling. They have been with me the longest in church, and they're the closest. They know me inside out, even though i piss them off alot at times, they still love me for who I am. They're always there to help me, no matter what. They are the people that i goof aronud alot with, all the scratching and punching xD Because of them, I smile when I'm sad(: Girls, you really mean alot to me.

Bye Bye

2009-07-01T20:43:00.000-07:00

I'm letting go. Bye.

It's mine

2009-07-01T03:52:00.001-07:00

AHAHAH. IT'S FINALLY MINE. BACK TO BLACK IS MINE :D i'm like now a fan of amy winehouse. Go Amy, lols. Now i know why she's a grammy award winner :D

i want back to black

2009-06-29T19:05:00.000-07:00

i want:

There's something wrong with me, why do I like R&B, Jazz and Soul nowadays?

Youth Camp

2009-06-29T18:40:00.001-07:00

Hey hey hey People(:,
yeap. Haven't been faithful in updating. Okok. let's get to the point:

YOUTH CAMP ELEVATE '09

It has seriously been an amazing experience. Haha, the ride there to our hotel was fun! Was like playing in the back with Hui Min, Nicholas, Tyzus all the way to our hotel. Met my teamates from DELTA on the first day, discussing on the cheers and stuff. Was feeling really tired though, but then BAM! the message by Pastor Jude got my full attention. Man, that guy is really on fire for God. His sermons, really spoke to me. How long have I been passionate for God's first love, His people? How long have I sat and watched events happen and just say: Oh well, what has happened has happened. How long have I just grown numb to God's calling? How long have I died spiritually? Well, God took all of that away at camp. My hurts and insecurities. Gained my passion back(: well, obviously there was alot of crying during camp, the altar calls. Can I say that camp was one of the happiest moments this year for me? Like, all of a sudden in camp, everything just fit back into place, I felt at peace. After some things that happened during the holidays. All those out there, you feel like you're never enough for God, you feel small, and if you know you have this calling from God to reach out to someone, I urge you to do as He says, time is short. Fears we have bind us from doing what God wants and when we fail to grab the opportunity to reach out to that particular person, we regret. HAHAHA, must say, I've made nice friends during camp, people from DELTA, and other teams. Photos? Haha, check Facebook!

pre YOUTH CAMP '09 post

2009-06-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

Youth camp, people, it was awesome. many things happened. But i want to share this song with you, it seriously speaks to us, our generation.

VERSE 1:
Tear down the walls see the world
Is there something we have missed
Turn from ourselves
Look beyond
There is so much more than this

PRE CHORUS:
And I dont need to see it to believe it
I dont need to see it to believe it
Cause I cant shake this
Fire deep inside my heart

VERSE 2:
Look to the skies hope arise
See His majesty revealed
More than this life there is love
There is hope and this is real

PRE CHORUS 2:
Cause I dont need to see it to believe it
I dont need to see it to believe it
Cause I cant shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

CHORUS:
This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
Its all for You

CHORUS 2:
Your Name is glorious
GloriousYour love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You

BRIDGE:Oh for all the sons and daughters
Who are walking in the darkness
You are calling us to lead them back to You
We will see Your spirit rising
As the lost come out of hiding
Every heart will see this hope we have in You

as if.

2009-06-01T21:41:00.000-07:00

You Are In a Decent Mood

You aren't turning cartwheels, but you're having a pretty good day. And better a pretty good day than a bad day.

There's some ups and some downs, but overall you're coming out ahead. Days like today are manageable.

Make sure to do one purely fun thing today, even if it's very small. Take time for someone or something you love.

Turning your decent mood into a fantastic mood is totally up to you. So go for it!

What Mood Are You In?

It's over (?)

2009-06-01T04:20:00.000-07:00

Guess my battle is almost over (: YAY GOD, me , and my greatgreat friends who helped me , (: ( you know who you are la ;D ) Gonna over load this blog with pics later, so get prepared! OMG, i feel like kind of lonely, cause MY BIG BRO LEFT SINGAPORE TODAY FOR HIS HOME :( who am i gonna bully ????? haha, big bro, you watch out, i'm so gonna kick ur *** on ur birthday, i will be prepared on mine. Hit me with your best shot >;D AHAHAH.

Erm (?)

2009-05-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

I love msn-ing at night:) When no one's around, i can finally be myself.

The pits

2009-05-27T06:33:00.000-07:00

What can i say ? i am just diasppointed. What is it that is going on ? Was it something that i missed? You're nothing but a stranger. Who are you ? You were once in my life. No more. i don't even know who you are now. Yea my fault. Blame everything on me. Yes everything, OK. I AM A FAILURE AT THIS OK ? WELL. YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH. IT'S BEEN HAUNTING ME FOR A LONG TIME. Now I can see that my nightmares are gonna be a living hell for me. This and last week has been... I have no other words for it. Hah. The things i do, and you're so freaking blind. Well, i guess you are too self centered. How many times have i stared at four walls at that place? How much longer ? Well, i guess i'm too tired to do my best after so many times. It doesn't matter anyway.

Lost

2009-05-26T04:02:00.000-07:00

I am afraid. Have you ever felt like you could lose yourself ? It's like this other person you are on the outside. You want to be yourself, but there's this person who's completely taking you. This mask on your face. You try to rip it, but it is still attached to you . It becomes a part of you. I try and try. But......... i know that God is awesomely good enough to help me get out of this. One step at a time

NEW COKE SONG :D

2009-05-13T07:11:00.000-07:00

OMG. NEW COKE SONG. MY BOY PATRICK WAS IN IT :D LOVE THAT AWESOME SINGER (:

NOTE TO ANDREA

2009-05-08T04:04:00.001-07:00

HEY ANDREA :D thanks alot for today. I'm really happy to have you as a friend :D:D:D I REALLY REALLY LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
YOU ANDREA ! :D YOU TOO XUE ER. THANKS FOR TODAY. HAHA I AM LIKE SUPER HIGH NOWWWWWWWW :D

CANNOT WAIT TO HANG OUT WITH MY BRO NEXT WEEK :D

Who cares ?

2009-05-03T06:57:00.000-07:00

Two reasons why we drifted apart :
I only retaliate. You don't care , i don't care. As simple as that.
I don't like you anymore. I don't even know who you are. You have who you want, you don't need me , so why bother ? I'm useless to you anyway. You started this, not me.

You don't care ? I don't care. Who cares ?

Realistic Standards

2009-04-27T01:04:00.001-07:00

I have not been really doing what i was supposed to do. I feel very bad :/ Oh well, apparently i have no time what. Seriously, you should at LEAST have set some realistic standards for me. Now you blame me ? Can you for once stop being like this ? I guess not. Explains alot. Oh well, i cannot be bothered. This has been going on for three years. You don't know ? Now, well you do .
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ARGGH. I have chinese paper tomorrow . :( man.

:( I WANNA HANG OUT WITH RACHEL YEW AGAIN. I MISS THE OLD TIMES.

and to this great great great person, you know who you are. Thanks for walking with me during my period of struggles this month. Couldn't have gone through that without your help. Really thanks man (:

:D

2009-04-23T01:04:00.000-07:00

Yay ! Today, class was like super fun. :D lols, andrea is funnaye xD

I wonder....

2009-04-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

I wonder, nowadays, why am i giving up so easily ? Why should i give up on my studies, my responsibilities and everything else , sometimes i tend to give up on God. yea it's stupidly wrong of me. DUH . Because i know that although if men give up on me He never will. Maybe i give up because sometimes when you want something, and like it is not meant to be , you just have to let go? Trust me, letting go is the most difficult thing. But right now, I don't. But am i too selfish ? That's what i'm wondering, or am i just being weak ? If I give up, i won't stress anyone up, i won't resctrict anyone cause they deserve freedom, or am i misunderstanding things ? Seeing how i have gotten people in trouble already, I hate myself enough. The stress is piling up and I cannot take another blow. Only God understands. I seriously have to thank God for revealing this to me through devtion today. But i know that if i give God everything, it will be solved (: and that's what i'm going to do.

and i really miss having fun.

Thank you rachel

2009-04-21T05:40:00.000-07:00

THANKS SO MUCH RACHEL YEW :D BE HAPPY LOR. THIS WHOLE POST IS DEDICATED TO YOU !

SS T.T

2009-04-20T03:25:00.001-07:00

SS TEST. O.O

Sorry.

2009-04-17T07:59:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry . I just don't deseve you and i am not a good influence anyway. so might as well.

net was fun. was goofing around with natalie's keyboard. natalie ; jy (: love ya.

100 TH POST :D

2009-04-08T00:56:00.000-07:00

Haha, my 100 th post ! LOL, A SERIOUS THANK YOU to william and javier today during chinese and all the way home. Almost cried in chinese class but then Javier was helping alot (: by bitching around and hitting people. =.= I LOVE 3D, 2E. Best years of my life man !
Thank you to : ( alphabetical order) : Amadea, Andrea, Gina, Hilary, Hua Jie, Joey, Kenneth, Mandy, Mei, Mel, Timothy , Xue Er FOR MAKING CLASS FUN AND ENJOYABLE MAN (:(:(:(: and like, i will never forget you guys , as in the ex 2E , (no offence ) . Cause 2E was the best class ever man.

God i give you everything again. I am gonna start from square one. Step by step. I'm coming back .

Changing

2009-03-30T03:39:00.000-07:00

Why am I so different ? It has only been three months, I've became worse. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ? Give people respect Hannah, you weren't like this during sec 2. What is wrong with me ? Why am I changing ?

JIAN FEI :D

2009-03-26T00:52:00.000-07:00

Wowee, like am gonna run soon, so, i can cut down on my fats . YAY :D

Loud fest '09

2009-03-22T00:45:00.001-07:00

LOUDFEST 09. Awesone. One word, awesome. The audacious band really rocked, you could tell that they were really true in worship (:

Day 1: [Photos 1-3]
Went there for the night service. Went to subway with Gio and William to wait for Kenneth, lol, we were like chit chatting to the max. Kenneth came, and we took the bus to... CORNERSTONE CHURCH. Went there to sit in the front. Wow, the amps were so LOUD ! But worship was awesome. The Audacious band really had annointing. Worship was taken to a new level for me (: After the sermon, the whole thing ended, took a bus home. Was like super late o.o , kenneth yan WAS SO FREAKING SLEEPY LA, that he slept in the train , haha, but was chatting with Amadea's friend from church, Timothy. AND FINALLY AT 12 I REACHED HOME.

Day 2 :[ Photos 4 - 20 ]
Met Gio and William at mrt station with Kenneth to take the bus there. On the way there, I was super kiasu cause William said he didn't recognise the place, so i alighted. THEN, IT TURNED OUT THE THE BUS ROUTE WAS RIGHT, so we had to walk all the way there. Sorry guys ! But WE BURNED CALORIES (: Had seminar and worship by Generations band then went for lunch. It was like raining. Gio took a photo of William's pill dissolving in water. LOL. After that, we had to get across this road that wasn't covered and we had only one umbrella, then, a friendly corner stone church guy came across the road, whom Kenneth said was good looking : Hey you guys need help ? Us : YEA Him: Ok, but for the girls, the place you have to go to is flooded. The water is ankle-deep. Me and Gio: Looked at each other, "T.T OH MAN ! " But it was quite fun :) Then Gio and I went to this desert place there and ate MANGO PUDDING ! ( photo 11 ) and went up for the woman's seminar :D Was like cool, cause they made Jenni , vocalist of the audacious band do a sexy catwalk. Damn funny , was awesome (: Then we met Kenneth and William, AND ATE AT THE DESSERT PLACE and went home. On the way home, we were singing at the top of our lungs, ( that's how i lost my voice =.= apart from screamign during worship ) and we walked past this Indian Food Shop, we were like this or subway ? We ate subway the day before , was kinda tired of it ? So we ate at the Indian Food Shop. AND THE FOOD WAS NICE !!! We took the bus and was camwhoring in the bus (: and Kenneth was the stylist and I was the model (right. ) and he was styling my hair in the bus . LOL was funny la, then he was bimbo-ing , i looked totally unglam though . Then this weird dude was staring at us. =.= yea, so Gio got down and Kenneth , William and I were like walking to the mrt then it was Kenneth and I in the mrt. Kenneth, apparently saw this woman dressed up like a prostitude and he was like *points at mrt window* PROSTITUDE. LOL , everyone was staring at us in the train la. Then Kenneth was like : ma, wo dai nin de shi wu ah in cheena accent and like this traditional chinese music played, just in time with that and like we laughed like crazy. I laughed until i cried. LOL, alighted at cck and met dad at wang cafe and forced him to buy strepsils for me (:

Day 3: [ Photos 21- 28]
Final day. Met Kenneth at the mrt, we were late, so we took the cab to Corner stone church . Had worship, seminar and INTERVIEW WITH PASTOR GLENN , his answers were seriously full of wisdom. Anyway, later, we had lunch, but we spilt up cause of the different workshop, so I ate with the band dynamics people, was talking to william all the time. THE CHICKEN RICE WAS SO NICE (: We went back to cornerstone to have the workshop. The Audacious band was conducting it. It was really inspiring. The way they answered our questions. Wow, you can that they are really true. After that, had dinner with Kenneth and Gio at the chicken rice shop again and had dessert at the dessert place . I had my BERRY YOGHURT :D We talked about our future lives and stuff, dreams etc. It was really enjoyable. Had night service, WORSHIP WAS REALLY TAKEN TO A NEWER LEVEL. i didn't experience anything like that before . Night service was awesome. YES WE WILL CROSS THE LINE FOR GOD :D A REVIVAL IN THIS GENERATION . I LOVE YOU GOD. it's like you can't get enough of it (: but it had to end :( Gio went off early , william went off too, and went home with Kenneth.

God, I know our calling,
Our generation's calling,
Our duty, your first love,
Help us to see the goal ,
concentrate on it ,
and not sidetrack away,
lead us, guide us, help us,
help us not to be offenced or take no for an answer
help us to press on no matter what,
help us to cross the line for you ,
live it out loud for you,
give you our best ,
and let You be You, God.

THANK YOU( not ranking)
GOD AND AUDACIOUS BAND (:
AMADEA(:
GIO(:
KENNETH(:
WILLIAM (:

for the company and time we had at loud fest

This has been said

2009-03-18T21:22:00.000-07:00

'This has been said too many times, that i'm not sure that it matters. Cause i'm falling apart to songs about hips and hearts.'

Yes too many times. I give up. I'm gonna give it up to GOD. Can't be bothered with you already.

Truly random.

2009-03-16T17:45:00.000-07:00

Top to bottom :

Gin Ming, Sarah and Yvonne. Was Yvonne's birthday on Sunday . HAPPY BELATED B'DAY :D

Haha, everyone celebrating in church for march PEOPLE :D (LOL)

I HAVE OFFICIALLY FALLEN IN LOVE WITH YA KUN ICE CREAM TOAST (: My dad loves the coffee ... That was really random .

Went to celebrate daddy's birthday yesterday. Ate at New York New York, my mom told me not to order the chicken cheese thingy again == and they ordered the sea food platter AGAIN . Haha, i felt really extra there cause i would have been better if they were together. HAHA :D But still the pasta rocks.

This totally unglam photo of rachel (: Love her to bits.

Well, there's nothing much to say right? We tried our best. It wasn't good enough. It was NEVER good enough.

Went for SANA yesterday. Was fun and exciting . Shao Hoon wanted her evil twin's photo.

Why ?

2009-03-10T05:48:00.000-07:00

Honestly, why do I even care ? So what if i changed ? At least i feel true happiness and more of myself with them . At least i know the true meaning of friendship and i have gained true friends. I don't regret gaining them and losing alot of 'friends' . Have you ever wondered why you had alot of problems with people ? Why always you ? Maybe you are the one at fault. Not everything has to be about you. And please treasure the person who's always there for you. Don't make the same mistake i did; if you want to stop losing people.

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I LOVE MY BESTIES:(not ranking) Kenneth, Gio, Jaiver, Joey, Chu Yi, Rachael, Rachel Yew, Mei

Sorry mei and rachel, don;t have ur photos. Chu Yi! I don't know where i put our photo :(. But u can still enjoy it (:
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Had a bad day today. Got scolded because our drill standard was not good enough, and for not doing math corrections properly. Ugh.

Pressure

2009-03-09T04:53:00.000-07:00

I am starting to feel the pressure. OMG . The competition is just like 5 DAYS AWAY :O It's finally here. Wow. Shocking. PIONEER TEAM :
I know that u guys are like damn tired and all, but no matter what we must still continue striving ! LET'S KICK SOME ASS. Yea, I love my pioneer team, we ALL LOVE Pioneer team :D

J.W. Building

2009-03-08T04:54:00.000-07:00

Yea man, went to the Jurong Building today. It was super new, smelt new and was awesome. I miss the CCK building though. I love my friends from church :D You guys are awesome !

I love this song

2009-03-06T02:02:00.000-08:00

The (Shipped) Gold Standard

Sometimes i want to quit this all
and become an accountant now
but I'm no good at math
and besides the dollar is down
plant more trees on Lake Michigan before it gets cold
I gotta feel the wind chill again before I get old

I wanna scream "I Love You" from the top of my lungs
but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
You can only blame your problems on the world for so long
before it all becomes the same old song
as soon as we hit the hospital
I know we're going to leave this town
and get new passports and get, get, get, get, get out now

All the 'yes' men said "no comment"my mouth got goin'the wrong way
and all the callsgot to know when
the time my dad caught me a horse shoe crab
and I asked him if throwing it back into the sea
would bring our luck back

I wanna scream "I Love You" from the top of my lungs
but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
You can only blame your problems on the world for so long
before it all becomes the same old song
as soon as we hit the hospital
I know we're going to leave this town
and get new passports get out now

Tell that boy I'll leave you alone
Like a stone, I'll turn my love 'round... both in the business of soul

I wanna scream "I Love You" from the top of my lungs
but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
Whoa-oh
I wanna scream "I Love You" from the top of my lungs
but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me
You can only blame your problems on the world for so long
before it all becomes the same old song
as soon as we hit the hospital

I know we're going to leave this townand get new passports and get, get, get, get, get out now
get, get, get, get, get out now

I love this song. Awesome .

Horrible

2009-03-05T02:53:00.000-08:00

I feel horrible

SWIMMING ! YAY :)

2009-03-02T02:28:00.001-08:00

Pictures, from top to bottom ,
-My bro and me (: I TOTALLY LOOKED SO WEIRD !
- Chapel from the crying room :D
- Gin Ming's shoe ( very random )
- Stupid Tortise
- Chu, Me and Gio :D

Swimming was so awesome yesterday :D my bro and I were like bitch talking in the pool. Haha, after that, we bought ice cream and pancakes from mr. bean. Yea, i made kenneth drop his cheese pancake ( sorry ) . LOL, there was this super cute tortise which i saw. But when i tried to help it , was it grateful ? NOOOOOOOOO. Infact, it totally kicked the fork i used to help pick it up. Ugh ! Stupid tortise. I so wanted to pour hot water over it :D BURN BABY BURN ! Yepp, we slacked at my house and watched wild child. I totally love drippy and FREDDY :D " and btw which fyi means by the way " O.O then we blasted music and did a math. My bro ate dinner there and we were guitaring and he went home. Seriously Bro, yesterday was seriously awesome :D MUST HANG OUT AGAIN !!! AND GIO! You la, MUST COME LEH :( LIKE OMG. i passed physics. Totally unbelievable. THANK YOU GOD :D I want my converse shoe ! Only two papers left ...

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I don't like the way you treat others. I don't like you. Please stop being so fake. At least i tried. You didn't.

I feel STUPID :D

2009-02-25T00:03:00.000-08:00

Haha, Physics was definately a SCREW UP, I didn't have time to complete the bio paper :( crap crap crap. Guess I'm gonna change my blogskin pretty soon. That's all for now. Gotta study for cheena

CALORIES

2009-02-23T00:04:00.000-08:00

Digestive Biscuit, McVitie's
Calories in 100g of biscuits:
Calories 495.0kcal
Carbohydrate 67.6g
Protein 7.0g
Fat 21.9g
Fibre 2.8g
Alcohol 0.0gCalories in a digestive .

OMG.

I Dislike

2009-02-22T23:54:00.000-08:00

There are many things that I am really annoyed with that i really dislike .
1. I dislike myself from liking your songs.
2. I dislike it that I like the way you sing.
3. I dislike it that I am becoming obsessed again.
4. I dislike it that I am have to break free from that type of music.
5. I dislike it that I am hurting God.
6. I dislike it that that happened

Chem today was screwed up. Hoping for a pass ): GOD HELP ME !

Gone

2009-02-21T22:09:00.002-08:00

It feels. Sad, i dunno, having mixed emotions now. I don't really feel like blogging or talking to anyone. Staring is fun.

I LOVE GOD AND MY BESTIES (:

2009-02-19T23:44:00.000-08:00

Haha, today was really awesome., and Mr Tan kept hitting my head =.= 4TH TIME ALREADY. It's totally messing up my hair. I just wanna thank God for being GOD. There. No other way to describe it. During recess today, watching my friends playing volleyball made me think back about the times we had. I STILL LOVE YOU BESTIES :D Yea, haha, everyone is thanking everyone on their blog though, :)haha. ( k, fine. I'm a copy cat ) These words are from the bottom of my heart . Yeap :

Kenneth-
HAHA, BRO !!! Thanks for like totally accepting me for who I am man(: Always being there for me and giving me godly advice and counsel. Thanks for enduring and being there for me during like my PMS-ey ( not patrick ) moments. Like i am totally sorry that i can't give you helpful advice at times :/ but , I WILL STILL BE YOUR SIS LOL. Yea, continue keeping up your love for God. Never ever let Him go, cause nothing can ever seperate us from the love of God . HAHA, i really enjoy all of the glam & goofy times we have. YOU RUBBING YOUR SWEAT on my hand and me pushing you off from your chair XD , yeap, you will always be my bro no matter what k ? And thanks for also listening to me when i am emo-ey and telling me about you-know-who when I'm down and encouraging me. You will go to church. THE DAY WILL COME MAN :D , believe and hope ! And , your fire for God is still burning , always tell yourself that He has a great plan installed for you. TO be the prayer warrior you ARE and WILL BE (: Really treasure you bro !
I can't wait to play bball and guitar with you. You must play in YOUR net one day man (: LETS BE HAPPY and SMILE!

Gio-
You know, SISTA' we have so much in common. LOL, I know that sometimes, situations are difficult for you, but no matter what ALWAYS PRASIE GOD :D Thanks for listening to me too, when I am thinking of me being fat and stuff. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL in God's eyes. :D I totally love our convos. on the phone too. No matter what , I will be here for you . GROW GROW GROW ! in God. Thanks for all of the encouragement and the BIMBO-NESS we have together. (: Thanks for like totally sticking up for me when ________ happens. No matter what, don't let them get to you. I don't want to see you being hindered. I am struggling too, But remember, making God happy is important. We're in this together. I will always LOVE YA sis, and great job with your sisters. I am really proud of you. (: Keep working hard man:D
LOVE YA !

Javier -
E.D.F or, BRO-THE XD . Haha, you will always be the bitchiest but nice bro-the i will ever have. Yes, I know I whack you at times and yell at you, but thanks for not getting angry at me. Even if it's my fault you'll still apologise, I'm really sorry for the way I treated you. Thanks for being who you are. That's important. KEEP growing in God, never stop. I know that God will use you. Never doubt yourself man. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING !!! my whinings, my squealings and my problems. You'll be always be my BRO-THE too :D

Chu Yi -
You are like the big zhe zhe I never had. I really am grateful for all of your advice. I will miss the times we have, singing while walking in the corridor and the rolling of EYES ! LOL. Still, I am inspired by you. You are a leader in God. Continue growing in him. Stay strong k ? Whatever situation you are in , cause, you are my CHU MOO (: LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA. :D:D:D

Amadea-
ARHHHMA--DEEERA . LOLS, you are the bimbo i can never forget. o.= it's great having you as a PG leader. HAHA , YOU LURBXX ________. LOLs, chill about school. You'll get wrinkles if you worry la. Dun worry, you're SMART .

Rachael-
Thanks, for the things you have done (: and every other thing. LOL . Yea, all the things we love/like. Don't worry k ? Yea, no matter what, I'll be there for you. Your listening ear, here and there. And when you're down , you can tell me how FAT and ugly patrick is (: Grow in God, never lose hope and faith in Him . Jesus is your only answer to every single problem you have.
Call on Him when you're down man . Remeber, everything happens for a reason . JY for ADAM !!! ( that was for you) LOVE YOU (:

I Don't CARE !!!

2009-02-18T04:54:00.000-08:00

You know what ? I don't care if the devil is trying to attack me cause he will NOT succeed. You know why ? Cause God is living in me and God is just so awesome . The devil is just pissed that God is winning in our school, he's upset that we are praying for God. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT ? WHO CARES ?! God is greater and more awesome than him. God can like totally step on the devil's head with His holy leg (: HAHA . But no matter what, my dear readers, you have authority of God, cause you are His child; you have two angels and God. What more do you want ? (: God is more than enough

Wasted

2009-02-15T03:23:00.000-08:00

Edited post. I can't be bothered with idiots. And what i said hurt God, so yea. (: And i am not gonna let poser stun my walk with God.

Wasted
Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it

For one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it
I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.

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I have to say, this week held ups and downs for me. Mostly ups though . I wanna thank God for everything (: God, YOU ROCK ! The edge was awesome ytd, the sermon really spoke to me.
Yes, I am giving them to you one by one God. I want to put you first in my heart. Never let you go.

HAHA :D

2009-02-12T03:21:00.000-08:00

You know, sometimes when your life really sucks , but then turns out for the better ? Weird right ? Well, i guess , that is what makes life exciting, and God still plans everything else. Yeap, He rules :D

LETS BE HAPPY AND SMILE (:

Hate it

2009-02-10T03:38:00.000-08:00

Annoying-NESS

2009-02-08T23:53:00.000-08:00

Three things i am so annoyed about :
1. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM ?! It's not my fault that I like it. I mean come on, they are just FREAKING earrings, it does not mean that you can just vent your stupid little tandrum on me when you just lost a quarrel to someone. Please get a life.

2. A MATH TEST ! I freaking did not see the last question. CRAP LA , hope i dun fail.

3. Letting go, its annoying yet difficult. I really want to let go, it's stupidly difficult. I HATE ________

:D

2009-02-07T04:22:00.001-08:00

Finally ! A blogskin that i am satisfied with. God is AWESOME :D

Thanks :)

2009-02-07T02:58:00.000-08:00

To this special friend of mine who gave me this :

Yepp, you're right. I have to lay it at the foot of the cross:) God will use me when he wants to. Thanks for the encouragement :D . I have one for you :

Don't give up in whatever you do. It's the season of time that God will raise each and everyone of us up for His work. Never doubt yourself, cause God can work mightly through you. And, never loose hope. God is always there for you :D ( and the angels ) I know that you will be God's warrior. Haha :D

Not good enough

2009-02-04T03:58:00.000-08:00

I feel like crap. I am not good enough.

It's a MONDAY :D

2009-02-02T02:17:00.000-08:00

Well, i haven't posted in like awhile .

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOEY AND GIO :D ;
LOVE YA BESTIES

Haha, i guess i really miss the edge. Spending time with my besties at church make me miss it so much. I am totally waiting for drill com to pass and to end. Yea, and region 11/12 is spiltting :( i miss my friends on the other side, and net is way smaller.

School !!! Was like normal today, as in being hyperactive as i am. Thanks Kenneth Yan for the PEN :D I feel uber sleepy and tired. I miss 2 Endurance . I wish that I could rewind time and go back. 2E 2E ! :D

God, just help me to love and forgive that certain someone. I don't wanna break your heart; it's just so difficult.

Clinging

2009-01-22T04:09:00.000-08:00

God, i really feel like giving up, the devil is going to do the same thing all over again . I will not let him do this . I want to be so desperate for you. I want to cling onto you , i don't want anything to seperate us. I don't want to be dry again . GOD I NEED YOU .

:(

2009-01-22T02:32:00.000-08:00

>:(

Irritated

2009-01-21T05:53:00.000-08:00

God, I am doin my best not to be irritated, help me not to be fussy. I am afraid of blowing up.

Desert Song

2009-01-20T04:16:00.001-08:00

This song is very encouraging

I wanna LOVE GOD EVEN MORE

2009-01-16T06:28:00.000-08:00

Yes, i have been through struggles lately, and i can totally tell it's coming from the devil cause he is pissed at us for being in God's army , that's why he's attacking us. But you know what ? This really proves that there is a God. And like I am really glad for God to have given me godly friends , always being there to help me ; ( by alp. ) Amadea, Chu Yi, Gio, Kenneth , Javier . Thanks you guys so much for understanding me and stuff and like always encouraging and inspiring me not to give up. It really means alot to me. And like DEVIL, GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM LOSER. I REBUKE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE PUT AHEAD TO HINDER US FROM COMING TO GOD. YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE AT A LOSING END AND YOU ARE SUCH A SORE LOSER. SO GO AWAY, PHS IS GOD'S SCHOOL AND YOU ARE NOT GONNA TAKE THE SCHOOL AWAY FROM GOD CAUSE HE IS MUCH MORE AWESOME THAN YOU. HAHA

Yea, had a wake up call today, yes God. I am not gonna let him win . I am gonna pick up my cross and live for you :D

Why ?

2009-01-15T04:08:00.001-08:00

You know, hearing about the way you are suffering day by day, it's really sad. I know that you are counting your days, but I hope that you can spend it without pain or suffering . I will definately miss you, although i am not that close to you. but, you are still part of us. I keep thinking why does this happen to you, after being mistreated for years, you were still loving, you don't deserve this. But who am I to say anything about it ? It's God's choice after all and He does the best for us. He chooses the best for us , i really don't wanna lose you like yeye. I took him for granted, and he just slipped away like that. I wish that i would stop thinking about this. Its just overwhelming, God i need you .

Today was kinda ok, except that i kinda felt shitty in the afternoon. Am not really in the mood to blog now.